It must be me

Why do I sometimes feel that there are people I know, friends and family members alike, who are somewhat ashamed (if I may use this word) of me?

It's like I'm not good enough for them and like "I don't belong" when they are with a particular group of other friends.

Why do I say I feel this way sometimes? Well, action speaks louder than words.

They can publicly acknowledge others but for the same thing, acknowledge me in private. Are you ashamed to do the same with me publicly? Tsk tsk tsk...

And yet, at times, your darkest secrets are dumped my way coz I can keep it in and I don't judge what you do or how you are. It works both ways coz you too may know my darkest secrets. Is that why you shy away?  My misdemanours bother you? But you all came to me with yours. Do you see me treat you differently?

Taking it in good faith and light, I know you all don't like the drama queen in me. And how I may react to the same acknowledgements. Like it or not, I do tend to over react (by your standards)especially when I get excited. Though I adore the attention, I don't mean to take the limelight. I'm just being me.

So to my few family members and the few friends, I just pray that we are all sincere in our intentions and our actions. Don't judge. You don't walk in my shoes and you don't leave the footprints that I leave. So, please. Don't judge me.